Becoming A Better You

I fear turning into them…

I fear turning into them

I regularly contemplate what more to do with my life. My idea is to add meaning to it, to be more joyful and to add value to the world. This is particularly useful at the end or beginning of each new year.

In the past l would worry that my 30’s are not being put to good use. I would fear being close to 40 only to realize that I have accomplished nothing of value with my life.

The Life I fear!

I’ve seen so many of my friends and acquaintances many who are a lot older then me still grappling with issues I dealt with in my teens and twenties and it scares me that instead of life getting better ( perhaps acquiring maturity, becoming more focused and being able to accomplish the things you have planned, bringing value into the world…. They are still trying to find themselves.

What is my push?

I am then driven by the need to ensure that when i get to my late  30’s I am not still trying to find myself or as some of them still are, trying to find life’s answers, trying to build a career, to rear children, to find their unique contribution to the world.

The circular feel of their lives – going round and round in the same circle scares the Living daylight out of me.

I want to accomplish many things in life, have balance, be successful in my chosen endeavors, be of assistance to others…. I don’t want to be caught up in the seemingly never-ending cycle of just trying to survive.

I fear turning into them - a meaningless life is not an option for meThis is one of the reasons I push myself  harder, I strive for a measure of excellence and  I try and teach my children to do the same.

What fear drives you?  I would love to hear from you.

This blog post is referenced in my current 2015 review of my goals. Take a look [ic_add_posts ids=’63202′]


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  • Reply Nkululeko

    Its quite unsettling but just finding that moment where you’re one with life is quite elusive,i still have a lot to achieve and sumtymz i worry a lot bout these thngs.

    March 23, 2012 at 1:03 am
    • Reply Lindywe MeMogale

      Hi Nkululeko it is a good think that yuo think about it, but over worrying about it doesnt help. I personally think you have achieved so much in your life already

      December 21, 2015 at 3:26 pm
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